If you’re a female Crossfitter, you may be able to relate to this one. And if not, keep at those heavy squats. You soon will.
I’m back in Melbourne after 9 months living overseas. As I was travelling light with only a carry-on bag, I didn’t have much of a clothes selection, so you can imagine my excitement at being reunited with my pre-trip wardrobe.
Yay! I had all my beloved pants, dresses and jackets back!
Problem was, most of them didn’t fit.
Thanks a bunch, Crossfit.
Having been training hard at various boxes around the world, I knew I’d put on a bit of muscle, but really?? Even the ‘loose’ pants and shorts were tight around my thighs and butt – and I had to squeeze my shoulders into my jackets. This was not cool.
I don’t usually weigh myself, but out of curiosity, I jumped on the scales. I was 65kg, 8kg heavier than when I’d started Crossfit in March 2013. The old me would have been horrified – but I was somewhat impressed. Wow, 8kg of GAINS, I thought.
“Crossfit doesn’t make you bulky”? Lies…
It reminded me of a conversation I had in NYC with my good friend and burpee extraordinaire, Jacinda. She had mused: “They tell you CrossFit doesn’t make you bulky, but by the time you realise they’re lying, you no longer care.”
There is some truth to this. I won’t lie and say I’m 100% ok with getting bigger. I used to have a very feminine body – small waist and smallish shoulders with curvy hips and thighs, which I liked. Now, my shoulders have grown almost wider than my hips, my arms are pretty solid and my waist has thickened. I sometimes do wish I had my smaller figure back – but here’s the thing:
I love what my body can do.
I am stronger, more balanced and more aware of my body than ever before, and I have a much better understanding of how it works and what it’s capable of. For example, I love knowing that I’m capable of doing practical things like lifting a 20kg suitcase or moving furniture as well as show-off skills like walking on my hands and climbing ropes.
Jacinda and I also talked about how the way we view our bodies in ‘numbers’ has changed too.
For example, instead of thinking about, say, 60kg as a goal weight, 60kg becomes the goal weight I want to squat. “I want to be a size 10”, turns into “I want to do 10 pull-ups!” And, most importantly, “I want to be skinny” becomes “I want to be strong.”
We’ve gained a new respect for our bodies and what they can achieve, which in my opinion is much healthier than obsessing over how it looks.
So yes, I’ve gone up a dress size. Yes, I have visible lats. And yes, I’ve given up hope of ever fitting into skinny jeans again.
But I’m ok with that.
Besides, it’s almost shorts weather :)
I trained at no less than 6 CrossFit boxes while I was away. Stay tuned for a post with a run down of each one – and what you can learn from training at different boxes. Thanks for reading, and keep on being awesome!